I Promise

So many promises and words unsaid
has caused me so much pain, I rather be dead
the fear of you leaving my side
has left me so broken I no longer have my pride
Now I sit with the pills next to me
what I'm about to do next, would you care to see
Would you care if I fell to the floor
and the paramedics told you I was no more
Would you have any sympathy , would you even dread
going to my funeral just to see me dead
Well If you do have a little feeling in you
why do you treat me the way that you do
Does it make you feel better does it give you a high
Does it make you feel in control each time u see me cry
Well keep up with the bullsh*t, I promise next time
that I'll go on with my suicide, and I ain't lying
Like I told you boy If you left me Id die
But you didn't listen you thought it was lie
So when you decide boy to walk out my door
Just remember what I told you before
Ill grab those pills that are right next to me
and I promise you boy that I will no longer be