You Killed Me But I Still Love You

As I slide my key in the door
My heart is beating fast
I slowly start to turn it
Praying tonight wont be like the last.

I shuffle awkwardly in the house
Realizing my whole body is aching
And that the entire day long
My smile I have been faking.

I make my way for a shower
Start to wipe the makeup from my face
Bruises are starting to show
My beauty lost all it's grace.

Halfway through the shower
I hear the front door slam
I'm out within seconds
Trying to form a plan.

The bathroom door opens
I'm thrown hard to the ground
How could I have ever thought
My soul mate I had found?

I lie still on the floor
Not attempting to fight back
I know if I do I'll have
To put up with more abuse and flak.

He starts kicking me violently in the stomach
I'm sure I can hear a rib or two crack
How can someone who was once so kind
Have turned into this monster abusing me front and back?

I realize he's really going for it tonight
He's never used so much force before
A whimper escapes my lips as I
Curl into a ball upon this blood soaked floor.

No one knows what I go through
They all think we're happy together
Family smile as they say they think
We're destined to be together forever.

But tonight I am getting scared
Even I'm not used to this much pain
He's always held a little back before
But I think he's finally gone insane.

The pain is getting to be to much to bare
I can feel my life slowly slipping away
Though he's the one doing this to me
I can't help whispering 'I'll love you even after today.'

If only I hadn't kept this secret
And kept the pain inside my head
He wouldn't have had chance to go so far
And I wouldn't have wound up dead.