Can't Hold On Much Longer

You know,
What you 2 did to me hurt so bad I still have my scares.
Wasn't there a reason to my acting after you hurt me so much?
I'm holding,
I holding to stay strong!!
I want to get through this!
I want to forget you 2.
I want to forget all that you did to me.
The ditching,
The ignoring
Never there for me,
Hurtful words,
Never caring!

I depended on you!!
I needed someone to lean on,
not me curling up to a little ball and cry.
You're making this so hard to let go.
You're in my classes,
You sit right next to me in most of my periods,
You try to talk to me
For what.
To hurt me more.

You 2 don't get it, do you?
You don't care!
You never did!
You hurt me!
You left me out in the cold!!
You are apparently doing better without a follower around!

I've had my tears about you!
I've had it with you!
I want to forget you!
Because of you.
I'm still living!
You save me from suicide but yet you hurt months later.
It would of been better if I was dead.
Now I have emotional scares!
Now all I want to do is get through my day!
I'm trying to hold on now!

I'm holding on,
to stay strong
To get through these scares
These painful scares.
Only if I could turn myself inside out!
You can see my pain.
What I felt!
What you 2 did to me.
I can't take it anymore!!
I can't hold on much longer.
So,
If I fall
Guess what,
Your fault....