I would rather not talk, I would rathe not smile,
Wanna be alone, Gather my thoughts for a while.
Stubborn and obnoxious, as I may seem,
They think I am happy, That is my dream,
I don't know where to go, shall I take a walk,
On my own as usual, no one left to talk.
Leave everything behind, the vulgar thoughts in my head,
To make my dream come true, announce myself as dead.
Leave the past behind, harder to do than said,
People in my way, making me so easily lead.
What would someone do, if they were in my situation,
When life is mixed up, a massive complication.
Give me some luck, o dear god, if you are really there,
Help through the day, make my life a life I could bare.
At the moment I am at wits end, waiting for a reason,
But every minute I live, I watch as Im passing every season.
Truelly now I feel, I cannot take no more,
I shall carry on blocking out these emotions, There is nothing to live for.
God almighty, God above, I do believe in you,
Everything happens for a reason, sadness among us too.
But if I had another chance, to change my selfish ways,
Maybe you would have created me stronger, which would lead to better days.
Amen
xxx
