Can we really try.... again?

You say you love me,
but yet you are such an a-s-s hole,
you tie up my feelings,
and leave them to the pole,

my heart yells for you,
but my mind tells it no,
i am fighting,
which way i should go,

i care about you,
dream about you all night,
yet every time we talk,
we happen to get in a fight,

i don't want it this way,
i never really did,
plus am i really in love,
after all i am just a kid,

yet when i am with you,
i am flying in the sky,
and sometimes when i am down,
you lift my spirit high,

yet i can't forget the past,
and how you hurt me so,
choosing whether to be with you,
i really just don't know,

you say you are sorry,
but i don't believe it,
after all,
when we were together you treated me like s-h-i-t,

it is not like i asked for it,
i was nice as i can be,
but everybody says,
you don't deserve me,

yet i look up to you,
and fall in your trap every time,
and think it is so cute,
when like me you try to rhyme,

i don't know we fight,
because i really like you,
but every time we talk,
we always ending up to,

am i too nice,
or are you to mean,
what is the problem,
that the first time was not seen,

i want to try again,
but my mind tells me no,
and after all,
if you love me i don't know,

you always make me smile,
and make my heart glow,
you are the greatest friend,
this you already should know,

you bring out the best in me,
and make me feel like I'm someone,
me and you together,
we have so much fun,

but then we get in a fight,
and say hurtful things to each other,
it feels like a sunny warm day,
turning into bad weather,

i could never try to hurt you,
yet sometimes i do,
but i am not the only one,
cause sometimes you hurt me too,

when we talk,
we are floating on a cloud,
you make all my happiness return,
and you make me feel so proud,

you are the best,
if i could i would give you a crown,
yet every once in a while,
you seem to let me down,

can i deal with that,
and handle it when you get mad,
no i can't,
cause deep down it makes me sad,

i know you don't mean to,
and you are not the only one to blame,
but you act,
like me and you is a game,

i care about you,
and trust you too,
but i don't really know,
what i should do,

you know i like you,
but you act like i don't care,
you really don't know,
i miss us when your not there,

i can't have an us,
with out a you,
and you can't say,
that you don't let me down too,

i admit i let you down,
and that i also am to blame for our down fall,
but where are you now,
when i need to stand tall,

when we first met,
you were like a dream to me,
and i knew when we went out,
that it just couldn't be,

so we fell apart,
but you want another try,
but if we don't work out,
i bet you won't cry,

so what will i do,
my heart and mine is fighting,
can our love,
get twice striked by lighting????????????

by,Denysia Chapman-Madden

( Ethan i don't know.... we went down once what if it happens again?)