Why do i even try

I feel my heart beating so fast
and i know this pain is going to last

i put my heart and soul into changing my fate
but some how i know I'm to late

Ive slip to far into this way
the depression is here to stay

I'm trying to change how i feel
and see my life is real

but i fall to my knees
god has not heard my pleas

why is it Ive become this way
i ask my self that everyday

no one knows the pain
every things driving me insane

its time for me to go
but my body is saying no

Ive tired
and about it Ive lied

i guess its pointless this life this pain will never end