As I sit here and think about my life.
I wonder about all the things i should have done.
Living a happy life, always comes with a price.
I wish I didn't worry as much, I was just a kid, I should of been out having fun.
What if i was never born, Maybe my brothers and sisters would have been alright.
maybe they would of been saved and stayed a happy family.
They where as so young, they shouldn't of had to fight.
But i was born and for that they all hate me.
I've got a broken family, and I'm the reason why.
I wish that i would of been the one that drowned, and my brother be here instead.
God, why did he have to die.
He would of been a better person, a better life he could of lead.
As I grew up, I new something was wrong,
I found out what my "dad" had done
When I herd the story, it was very long.
And thats why my new outlook on life begun.
I figured life wasn't worth it.
So many things that my life lacks.
Its just a bunch of torment.
Time, I wish i could turn back.
All i can do is hope for a better day.
And someday have a family thats not so deranged.
