In my 18 years of life
I've seen a lot
I grew up without my father
Just like u
I see a lot of me in u
Growing up my life seemed to suck
I wanted to die a lot of the time
And I thought I was never good enough
I grew up around arguments
Between the people I cared about
Like u.. whenever there was an argument
I lost people I really loved
U see when your mum was seven
She lost her dearest friend, your pop
And ever since then
She's been messed up
Your mum, and your nanna
As much as they don't see it
They are both so much alike
They have different views of one another, and dont want to believe
Every time I see u
U are so happy and cheery
I love that about u
But I know sometimes u put it on
I know u and know when your upset
You're emotional and caring like me
U always take things to the heart
And I know when she yells at u
U hate yourself and u hate her
I know it seems unfair
I see how much u hurt
I feel for u when u write those notes
Saying u just want to die
I can see now
When u get into your teen years if not before
U are going to need counseling
I see u when u talk to me
I look into your eyes
I just want to die
U look into my eyes when u talk to me
When u open up I almost start to cry
When u tell me it's not fair
She loves your sisters more then u
She always sticks up for them
All I can say is that she doesn't, she loves u all the same
As a kid I felt the same way
I still do sometimes
I felt like I didn't belong
I felt like I was hated at times
I know what you're going through babe
I need u to understand
I'm always going to be here for u
No matter what happens
I'm your auntie for life
No matter what happens between me and your mum
I'll never let u down
I'm closer to u then ever and I love u
Please always remember:
"You're not alone"
Please always remember:
In your heart and watching over u
Is where I'll be
Just call my name
But if I some how don't come to u
Look up and u'll feel me
I'll always be there.
