Melt down

When I hear you I freak I break down I feel weak and yet so good at the same time.
When I see you I just freeze. I have never felt like so weak and yet so good all at the same time.
Now I no longer want to hear you I no longer want to see you, you hate me and I'm trying to hate you. Whenever I know your near I try to keep away, but why what good is it going to do.
Whenever I hear about I just want people to shut up and yet then why do I think about you.
Whenever I try to escape you linger in me. I'm in an endless vortex which keeps circling me.