Confusion!!!

Where shall I begin? Why even start to write?
Because that is the resilience of man - his might!
I am so confused, I am lost!
Although I know it was not my fault - it cost!

I did lose materially but that can always be regained!
But my true joy and all this emotional pain!
This is not so easy to shove aside or sweep in the rug.
The sad feelings just keep taunting you - all day long!

What did I do wrong? How did I make this bad choice?
I was searching for love and someone to hear my deep voice!
How is this bad? Giving your heart to a church going person?
How did being sweet and kind cause my situation to worsen?

That I guess is a folly of mine - soft-heartedness my greatest failing,
Still it is a most welcome quality so I am confident I will not go on ailing!
This thing called love is so misleading! That leaves some reeling!
Sheds blows that are death dealing! No wonder some have so little feeling!