I just sit here crying and cant stop I'm so sad i just don't know what to d anymore i think I've lost my will to remain alive I've never felt this type of pain before and don't intend to again maybe it never wold have happened if i never fell in love with him but i couldn't help it but perhaps i can end it but how without causing the two of us even more pain at the same time if I'm hurt fine i can deal with it i always have but i just cant hurt him but if i end my life maybe i can prevent it from happening to us again all i know is and am sure of is that this will not happen again to me and him!!!!!!
