Cant love

I wake up in a cold sweat
Taste you on my tongue
Feet,freezing cold
Cannot see straight

Whats wrong with me?
-No thats not it

Cant swallow
In my skin i cannot fit
This feeling is to crude
Cant think of anything else

So i call you
Even though i know you're not there
Just want to hear your voice
But my heartbeat drowns that out

Cant run away
Cant stay and pout
Where to go
What to do
Dare i say
I love you

Cant remember anything when you speak
Cant breath

Can it be love?
No it cant be

Cause i cant love
Dont know how