Pity Me, Please

I sit here with tears falling down my face-
Wondering my heart has always
Been such a lonely place.
Your face is all I can see,
And I know for a fact you'll always be the only one for me.
I need to stop lying to myself,
You will never love my smile, when you look at me you will never melt.
This is more than a crush-
Oh God this is so strong,
This feeling makes me do more than blush.
You sent a smile to my lips
While the tears fell free.
You can't possibly realize how much your hurting me.
I'm wallowing in desperation-
I'm getting lost in self-pity.