Unable to love

Feeling light headed
and depressed tonight
because if you didn't know
i have a girlfriend now
yeah i know i should be happy
but this is the part that i
don't understand at all
I'm with my girl but i feel empty
because my true love took my life
she took my heart and soul
so i like my girl but sadly
i miss my love and her smile
i am a guy so that you know
but my favorite pen is this
Tinker bell pen with Tinker bell on it
and yes it's girly and it seems gay
because i never knew why i love this pen
but now i know why
it's because it reminds me
of the one i really love
but i want to get over my love
because she doesn't want me in her life
and thats fine with me because I'd do anything
just to make her happy
but i want my life. my heart
and the leftovers of my soul back to me
so i can love my girl to night
knowing shes the only one in my life
so as i burn my Tinker bell tonight
and take it to hell
it's because i just want my life, my heart and my soul to heal
so i can love once again