Why bother love?

What's the use of lying to me
you're just trying to make me blind so i cant see

i wont try to find love
I'll let it come find my soul
i didn't want to be alone and cold

it was awkward crying to myself
and trying not to hide my true self

of course it hurted i wont lie
it hurted even more when you waved bye

leaving me to realize it was a fake
which cause me to hate

not ever wanting to give love another chance
letting it slip by without a glance

closing my eyes
soaking myself in lies

I'll feel better
even though nothing else matters

i wont take this chance with love
because you were sent by him above

i know ill lose to you
so i wont take the chance of lookin like the fool

i wont bother with love again
even if i lose to him