Wondering

Just sitting here wondering,
When a baby's born why does the world sing?
When new creation is made why rejoice,
Its just one voice
In a crowd. So why care?
Why not just sit and stare?

Whats the point in life anyway?
What does it matter if we had a bad day?
What does it matter if were happy or sad,
Or joyful or scared or just plain mad?
What were we put here for?
Ever wondered if, maybe theres something more?

More out there than you and me,
And every animal or plant or tree?
A purpose in life that should be fulfilled,
A mission, something that cannot be killed?
Some great creator, who has a plan?
For every child, woman and man?

What is my purpose here on this earth?
Is it to be a saint or just give birth
To wonderful children and raise them up right,
Or just work hard, with all my might?
I dont no and I wont for while.
But Ill tell u one thing - it is to smile.

Its not about the way Ive been living lately.
I'm not who I was meant to be.
I'm living and breathing but I'm dead inside,
Living in a shell, just trying to hide.
Life's not for sadness and not for tears,
Its not being ashamed of what you see in the mirrors.
Its not endless failing and doing everything wrong,
Or this sadness that has seemed to last so long,

No its not for weeping and sorrow,
For there will be new tomorrows.
Life's about learning and loving and LIVING,
And reaching out and giving.
All of this I guess I forgot,
And I know life isn't any thing that cant bought

Life isn't like any old thing, no- its so much more,
it doesn't have to be one big bore.
Life is sacred and special ,its true
For God does have a plan for me and you,
And though I know not what it is,
Its sure to be full of trial, yet bliss.

For life's full of many struggles,
And lots and lots of troubles.
But they are there so we see joy more clearly,
And we can see the hand of God more nearly.
So why are things so hard to see?
I no all this yet its hard for me
To put my trust in the one who's up above,
And who cares for me with everlasting love.

But I cant, no I cant just yet.
But I hope someday I will let
Myself be as I once was and do as I did,
I wish I could go back to being one happy kid.
But life goes on and so must I,
I must struggle not to cry,
And must hold my head up high.

For it will get better, I no it will,
In a few years it wont be like this still.
Soon I will see the light,
So I wont give up on my fight
So all I can do is wait and hope,
And soon Ill be able to cope
With all my problems of the past
And just look up, smile and laugh