Waiting

I'm to the point
I just want to scream
What if I am?
What will I do?
What can I do?
I can't even imagine
How I'd begin to cope
With this aweful mess
We've both created
I'm not ready
Physically or emotionally
I know the fault is my own
But his too of course
It was the heat of the moment
That just took over
It wasn't two minutes
And I felt guilty
So did he
We fixed it
But those two minutes
Is all it can take
Now I'm a wreck
Waiting for the first sign
Positive or not