Cold, paralyzed
near death
just laying
thinking
tolerating nonexisting voices
lights flicker
images blur
fists clentch
urge is strong
fighting the blood pulsing shaking
escaping fear
i weep
unconscious
destroyed
the fury
builds inside
high
helpless
the pain is bittersweet
failure
hatred
shame
regret
pressure to succeed
obsession
unware of the nightmare
addiction
