Sanity

As another person dies n my eyes
A small drop of tear slides across my cheek
In an instant I think about the outcome of death
She committed suicide because she was lonely, ignored, and sad
Would I do something like that, like her?
She didn't have many friends, and only one of her friends came to see her off
Would nobody come to see me off?
The people around me say that they are my friends
But when I'm gone..would they remember me?
A few years pass by and they live, have a family, and enjoy life
Would they remember a small existence like me?
I wonder about that every single day
If there is a place called heaven in this universe
Would I go there and become happy like everybody says?
Can that place called heaven really discard my empty heart?
Or would I go to hell and suffer even after my death?
No one will know the answer until I go over there
I would journey through earth and arrive at my final resting place
And close my eyes on earth
Then I shall begin a path that will determine hell or heaven