Can the worst be over now ?

Can the worst be over now, or does a mistress await her turn,

my eyes are drying up and she says ' i love you '

Everything can be wonderful she promises
That all i need is her ever sweet voice
No one will know, not till she screams

And sometimes i want to die
But she reminds me not to
i am at the start staring at the end

i can't stop laughing though i want to cry
To be touched by another being, to exist
But i am too much like my past

Don't worry about this one
She ain't going anywhere
Just keep an eye on what is happening
Wait, for the change, and then see

Too late to stop her now
Should of seen this one coming
What can you do now ?
Simply stand and be help-less

She isn't listening to anyone - outside her own head

Can the worst be over now ? -
Or does a mistress await her turn ?

* more like ramblings than any clear form or structure, just a venting period. Creativity escapes me for now *