God is cruel

I live in fear of wondering
what my life may bring
tears fall from my eyes
dropping on my cuts that sting

its hard to keep in emotion
sometimes i have to let go
being me all the time
depression it does show

i always cut my skin
it bleeds all over my floor
as the days come past me
i hate life more and more

i wonder what had started this
i want to remember how
i wish i could take it back
before this moment now

god, are you punishing me
what did i do to you
u took my life and ruined it
i wish u felt my pain too