These are the words u'll never hear

Here are the words
I'll never say
Only because
I can't find a way
A way to tell u
The right way, the right time

I left u with
Nothing more then goodbye
I wanted to tell u so much
But I couldn't even look you eye to eye

You looked at me
As I spoke, I couldn't look straight at u
U asked me if I was OK
I had to lie and say I'm fine

For so long I thought about
The day we'd say goodbye
I resisted how I would tell u how I feel
I couldn't get it off my mind

A lot of the time I was in my own world
Conversations with friends
They'd go on and on
I could see lips moving, I wasn't paying attention

I wanted to tell u
Honestly I did
But I didn't know how
I hope u get this

My reasons are
You're a loving husband
You're a loving father
You didn't lead me on but

I still fell in love with u
With no warning
I tried to let it go
But u know how hard it is

To this day I still do
Have these feelings and thoughts
I'm so sorry
I'm so ashamed of myself

I know u had a right to know
But in my way of thinking
I'm protecting u
From a lot of pain and anguish

If one day we see each other again
I don't know how I will react
But if I do react the same way
Please understand it's not u it's me

These are the words
I'll never hear
These are the words
That will never be unleashed

XXXxxx