I love you Dad. (Missing you)

It is difficult to say this, honestly it is.
I wish you were here now, to give me my last kiss.

I thought you were a coward, But then I saw the truth.
I love you so much dad, I do not think you need proof

I will never forget you, and I swear that is true.
You will always be my dad, No-one else but you.

If only you could be here, to take away the pain.
To make me laugh, to stop me cry, to call me bubbles again.

My friends they never knew you, and never ever will.
I tell them things they like to hear, and talk about you still.

Just because you are in the sky, does not mean that you are forgotten.
You are a dad to every one of us, from the top down to the bottom.

I want you to remember, that I love you very much.
You will always be my dad, even though we are not in touch.

Do you remember one time? When mum went away.
We threw spaghetti on the ceiling, what an amazing day.

I remember when I cut my hair, upon your double bed.
You made me cry by the look you gave, now look at you, you are dead.

I blamed it all on myself, my feelings I cant hide.
I can not believe you have gone away, it hurts so much inside.

I wish that you could come back; I know that can not be done.
I dont like to be miserable; I like to have good fun.

If you can see me from the sky, I hope you realise.
Even though I seem a happy child, I am really not inside.

I think about you all the time, whilst lying in my bed.
My tears they stream straight down my face, and thoughts run through my head.

Most of the times I think of you I mostly cry but I laugh too, you always made me happy.
I think you still do now, I am proud that you are my daddy.

Your pictures are my memory, I do not remember much.
I wish that I could hold your hand, and feel your loving touch.

I think I had better go now, this poem is getting long.
Remember that I love you, And that I am trying to be strong.

You will always be my dad, Even though you are not near.
I wish you could come back, and wipe away this tear.