The Way

The way that you touched me sent tears to my eyes.
I was only 10, i didnt know ny better.
You sent me so many messages
that i still cant clear up
and i tried to forget you but you keep popping up.

You need to stay in my past, the one that i hide,
Go away from my present, the one that i embrase,
and dont scare my future, its all i have.

I still havent told anyone
since you threatened to kill me,
5 years ago.

D@mmit, its been 5 years,
and you still have me scared.

You beat me.
Abused me physically, emotionally, sexually,
in any possible way.

Why did you think that you could get away with it?
oh wait, you did.

you are..

i hope that this doesnt mess me up forever.
although so far it has.

i dont know what a healthy relationship is,
or what love is supposed to be,
i have learned that it isnt drugs and booze
or any of that s$it you put on me.

Im trying to move on
i wish you would to

even though you say "i love you"
alli i can think is "yeah, F$@^ you too"