When i wake up in the morning you are the first thing that i think about
I look into my mirror and i see the heart with your name in it that i have taped up
I drive into school early so that i can maybe bump into you on the way
If not i have the extra time to see you wondering in the halls
I make sure to make it a point to walk the halls as much as i can
I stand tall so that i can see your face in the distance
The bell rings and i go to class, neglected the attention i desire
All throughout class i draw hearts in your name
I think about you all the time
In the halls again between class, i look for you, though i know that you won't be there
I have you class schedule memorized and when our paths meet
Third and seventh period is when i get to see you my love
After school and i look for you walking to your car, but you are never there
I go to FFA, and you are there, but not with me
You are sitting with another girl and i think that it just might kill me
I go through the night trying to focus on the task at hand
But all i can do is act giddy in your presence
After this meeting i leave a note in your truck but i am convinced that you won't get it
Think about you on the way home and all through dinner
It is getting late and i haven't heard from you
I want you to call so badly
I call you but you don't answer, so i curse at you softly
I think that you are a player and that you are leading me on
I curse you softly
Then my phone rings and i run so fast i swear i could fly, but it is not you
I do not answer
The phone rings again and this time i run faster
It is you!
I answer in an uncaring manner and you Don't sound happy
You are multi-tasking so you can't give me your full attention
I curse you softly
We talk about nothing for ten minutes, then you say you have to go and do homework
We hang up and this time i curse at you loudly
I scream about how angry i am with you and how you don't even care
I crawl into bed and act like I'm four
I bawl like a small child
i think of how a love you and how you cannot love me back as i still curse you softly
I dream sweet nothings of the two of us
And in the morning i will wake and the first thing i will think about is you
And the first thing that i will see is a heart with your name in it
Is there any relief or am i just doomed to this terrible death?
