In my heart

I can bear no longer
how alone and cold I am
in this World, this place,
this everything I used to have

I can no longer see
with my own eyes
the beauty other says
lies underneath the world's disguise

How could I see it all
after knowing what It's like
to be among them
who aren't happy or alike

How could I feel it all
after realizing that there is
more cold than warmth
around everyone around me

This is a place where I thought
happy people would meet,
but it turns out to be different,
it all was a cheat

I do no longer trust this world
with how I think it all is,
because that would only hurt me
like this

I will still feel everything,
and enjoy as much I can,
for the black space in my heart
is no longer there

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