Independent

I want someone
To stop me
And to take control.
I need all the help
That anyone can give,
But don't want to
Admit to my helplessness.
I am confused
In a way that,
I don't know.
Who is willing to help.
So when I am willing
To forfeit my independence
I'm to scared to ask for
Help.
What if they laugh
At my depression
What if they make fun
Of my hopeless thinking.
I don't want to be alone
But I don't want to admit
To such a sad
Defeat.
I need my independence
But am bad,
When taking care of
Myself.
I need someone
A "crutch"
Someone I can lean on
Whenever I need help.
In the end,
It really won't
Matter
For I will not
Find this person,
Or even admit to
Some form of commitment
A secret view of defeat.
Someone learn me
Please figure me out.
I need your help,
But I won't ask.
I need your care
But won't tell.
I need your love
But won't get it
Until you discover me
My secrets
Learn my thoughts
Know my pains
And control my heart.
Without taking me over
And breaking me apart.