It takes away too much pride,
Knowing I couldn't make it through.
As I sat there day by day,
Too helpless to know the truth.
I didn't make it far enough;
Only the weak have to give up.
I had nothing left in me,
No laughs or tears at all.
You told me you'd be there to catch me,
But no one caught my fall.
It didn't matter that you weren't there,
Or that you just sat to watch me cry.
I would have to say what hurt most,
Was the fact that you fed me lies.
I tried to not let it get to me,
I pretended I didn't care.
I said that I didn't need you,
And that I didn't want you there.
But you were constantly on my mind,
Always biting at my heels.
You're face haunting my once pleasant dreams,
To the point where I was too numb to feel.
It didn't make any sense,
Why my mind drifted to you.
Why would I want to think,
Of someone who wasn't true?
I learned to fake a smile,
It was the only way I could cope.
But what no one else could see,
Was that I'd finally lost all hope.
I had nothing left in me,
No laughs or tears at all.
You told me you'd be there to catch me,
But no one caught my fall.
It didn't matter that you weren't there,
Or that you just sat to watch me cry.
I would have to say what hurt most,
Was the fact that you fed me lies.
Don't you dare even think about saying sorry,
Or pretend that nothing ever happened.
Because every time I fall back down,
I still pray that I wont ever land.
