Is this reality?

My make ups running down my face
the tears fall down
leaving a dark path to trace
my eyes are red, they hurt so bad
my arm stings
blood is dripping down
no one heard my screams
is this my life
or a horrible dream
i'm really dizzy
tripping over air
or anything that is not there
drip by drip
i'm killing myslef
scream after scream
i lose my voice
tears followed by tears
i realize this is my worst fear
killing myself to be with you
killing the pain and hurt inside
life as i know it is over
but its just begun