Unexplainable

I want to love with all my heart
But I know I never will
I know that I'm incapable
Knowing this, it kills.

So many things that I could learn
I know it won't be me
I, the one who wants to help
Will surely never see.

Will I be the only one
Who watches those who smile
Watching what I cannot have
Is living all worth while?

I know that I won't choose to die
Selfishness is not my way
I'll live as if there's nothing wrong
And just play it day by day.

Because love is not the only thing
That keeps a human going
Yet somehow I wish I had that too
But i wont let it begin showing.

And I wish to be a stronger girl
I won't lower myself to greed
Love is something that luck will bring
It's not something that I need.

I can't describe the way I feel
No words can draw it out
It's just so unexplainable
I can't say what it's about.