A Loss

I learned the feeling
Of a loss of hope and dreams
I learned the feeling of disappointment
The kind I can't be sure of
Why am I so disappointed?
It shouldn't matter.

Today was different
I felt a longing to belong in the group I spend my waking hours with..
I felt disowned, thrown-out,
As if I didn't belong.. why?
I felt as if I could cry my heart out at any second
I did,
It fell to the floor
And my friends just stood there
As if nothing had happened..
It beat slower and slower
And none of them cared enough to pick it up and put it back in its place..
I cried out to them...
They didn't hear me..
They didn't even glance in my direction,
I'm invisible..
No one can see me...
My life is no longer meaningful. I'm mistaken,
It never was in the first place. There's no reason to live anymore There never was anything to look forward to.
Will there ever be a happy tomorrow for me?