I watch from a distance
Imagining the 2 of us
Imagining how you'd love me
How you would never make me bleed
Sing me to sleep when times get hard
Then I pull myself back to present
realize that you love someone
I realize that someone isn't me
I watch you brush the hair from her face
I see the way you look at her
As though no one could tear her from your grip
I imagine myself in her place
I feel your fingers Cooley brush my face
But then I stop my imaginings
Tell myself you weren't meant for me
You never glanced my way
As though I was one of the numerous people that passed you
I feel myself in your arms,
I feel your lips soft against mine
I wish I could approach you
Leave my dark corner take my place beside you
I see the woman you love
I see her beauty, her power
I know you could never leave her
I realize you will never be mine
My only wish is to be with you
To be in the safety of your arms
Sometimes I wonder if you ever saw me or even knew me
I know your future is with her
I wish that one day you might want me
But till then I will wait
I will stop all time just to give us a chance
To try a new love between us
To hope one day you will see me
Not as the beautiful girl in your class
But as the sweet poetess
The one girl who would do anything for you
I would never lie never lose faith
I would be your shield defy those her hurt you
But then I stop myself
You do not want me, you want her
The sweetest flower of all
I am a rose
But she to you is something greater than a rose
You pass me during class, you ignore me
Now I stand here reading this poem
I know for sure that I will never have your love
I'm not scared to die for you
If I must so be it
The greater you make my love the greater the sacrifice.
My imaginings have gone to far
I must stop this nonsense
But Abdul remember I am forever yours.
