by Angel Feb 27, 2007
category :
Life, society /
other
Hear lies a girl sitting and crying unbearably. She doesn't know what to do, she feels incomplete and unwanted by everyone in the world. The names that they call her are not fit for human ears. Rumors they spread would turn your stomach and she can't take it anymore. She feels like just curling up and dying, like her life is not worth living. The constant feeling of heartbreak by every single boy she meets. Living in fear of her past and regrets how it effects her today. She tries to live life one day at a time but it doesn't seem to work that way. She feels like every time she walks by, people stereotype her in all ways that could be hurtful and mean. She can't make it through all of this so she just cries. She keeps all her feelings bottled up inside of her and never expresses how she feels to anyone because she can trust no one. As the days go on, it seems to her that her life just stays in a blur and that there is no light at the end of tunnel. The long journey she has in front of her seems to get harder and longer as each day passes. When she looks at herself in the mirror all she sees is a disgrace and failure that lie beneath her skin. She tries to stay strong and erase everything she has ever done wrong but it is in erasable. Actions speak louder than words and in her case, they have. People base her on what she was and not what she has become or what she has accomplished. The life she once dreamed about seems to only be a figment of her imagination right now. Big plans of her being all that she could be have been diminished by the way she looks at herself these days. She tries to be the best person she could be and live up to her expectations but her mind reflects something different. Her emotions seem to take over her mentally and wears her down until she can hardly see anymore. This feeling is not the type where people feel sad, this feeling is ten times worse. Fright, horror, disgrace and no self confidence is the feeling that is overwhelming her. Now this girl looks at herself and says she can trust no one, so how come she is telling me this? Why can she put all her trust into this person and express her inner most personal feelings? Now the fact that I will say is true and will hurt this girl badly, the girl is me and nothing I say and do will help me prevent what has happening or what I have gone through. |