I use to sit here and wonder why
I'd wonder why you'd always say goodbye.
Was I not good enough for you?
Maybe your love for me wasn't true?
Ok maybe I lied and said something I hadn't meant
But the lie wasn't far from the truth, my action i do resent
I said I didn't go to a party which was half from the truth
I went to drop off my cousin, I never meant to disrespect you
I didn't tell you at first because I knew you wouldn't understand
You don't believe anything but what you want to be real
I never meant to lie to you, but the truth you would never feel.
would it honestly make a difference if i told you that night or not?
No matter the timing, you wouldn't believe it, and we would have fought
you say I'm the immature one, heh i don't know if thats true
yes i lied to you, but have i ever treated you like shit, as you do?
I treated you good besides the lie
there was no doubt in my mind i wanted you to be my guy
the way you treated me theres no excuse for
you called me a s***, a b**** and a w****!
you told me i was ugly and implied that I'm fat?
I'm suppose to feel loved and safe by you, whats your excuse for that?
You rarely said I love you unless i said it first
I really doubt you meant it, but when you didn't say it i felt worse
sure we had some great times, but they're over ruled by the bad
I can honestly say your the best thing and worst thing iv ever had
There are memories of us ill take to the grave
same goes with the paper you wrote "Ashley, I love you Babe"
And taped to that paper is something you gave to me
I said id keep it forever, it was a tiny twig you pulled from a tree
I said id keep it forever but forever is shorter then i thought
who knew this day would come, and its your love that i lost
A memory ill never forget, ha us throwing rocks at the tree
Maybe it was better when you barley noticed me?
