Is it wrong to blame?

I wonder all the time
Would I be a different person?
Would I be a better girl?
If you were around

Unfortunately I'll never know
All I can do is believe
That my life would be so much better
If you were around

I never knew you
I don't know what to do
Is it wrong to blame you?
For not being around

I was just a little kid, not even
I was a 2-year-old baby
Who's father was never around before
Let alone after he died

I've always been told
You're up there watching over me
I've always believed that
But somehow, I don't anymore

I just heard a song
From a daddy to his baby girl
It made me think
You were never around

The reason you're gone is because
You gave in
Why did you give in Dad?
Did you want to punish me??
By not being around

Because you gave up your life
I've grown up around
So much hate and anger
Things wouldn't be this way
If you were still around

Are you up there watching over us?
Have you seen how much hate your youngest son has for you?
Can you tell me is that your fault?
Or his imagination running wild?
Are you proud at what you've done to him?

Because you died
Your youngest daughter
Grew up broken
Hates her life

Is it wrong to hate?
Is it wrong to blame you?
For the way I am
You're the reason why
My life is so incomplete

You were never around (is it wrong to blame)?