Undecided

Wondering when i should let go
if i have a chance in this world
so alone
yet so surrounded
by people who think i am "fine"
when im not
no one knows what lies
beneath all the lies
no one knows
that i cry sometimes at night
no one knows that when i smile
its a fake,
glued on
tight
like a mask
only screwed to your face
i walk through life
just going through the motions
and no one notices
the emptiness in my eyes
and if someone asked me to describe one
good thing about myself,
i would have only one answer,
one word to say,
"Undecided."