Do you ever wish that you could be near sudden death..just to see who cares for you? Well I do. I cry myself to sleep just wondering why, couldn't he just let me die? Drama. That's all my life is now, I lie to everyone, telling them I'm fine...when I know for a fact that I'm not.
"Just tell me what's wrong" they say to me. "Nothing, I'm fine." I think in my head, your help I'll always decline. I'm glad that they care and want to help, but they think I'm like this because of someone else,
well they're way off, it's not hi that bothers me, it's her and I don't even know who she is. I don't understand what goes on in my hea, so how can someone else? She is me and I am her...it's confusing now but you'll get it, just think. We're half and half of the same whole, but does she know my main goal? I don't think so!
I'm crazy, I know, but never again will I let her show.
