Wanting to leave
wanting to surrender myself
wanting to be free
wanting you to see
what i have become
no longer myself
no longer me
no longer wanting
wanting to live
but i cant
let myself go
i cant
no longer alive
yet so mortally wounded
from the inside
seeing black through all the white
seeing all the angels,
yet they are all so black,
black as the night
wanting to die
from the outside
letting everyone see me
one last time
until we meet again
i turn out the light.
