My Fears (part 1)

My fears, they can grab me
by the throat like an iron fist
and sometimes they're so numbing
I cant shake them when they persist

The paralyzing thought
of loosing my one true love
can drive my mind to hell and back
and its all that I can think of

How could life for me go on
with our souls living apart
How could my once meaningful life
mean anything without my heart

My blood, it would stop pumping
my brain would cease to tick
my body, just an empty shell
my soul a heavy brick.

Sometimes I feel like Im crazy
to dwell on things like this
when we're both young and healthy
and enjoying each other's kiss

But just as quick as happiness comes
there looms the kiss of death
to take away his warmth and love
with death's menacing, threatening breath

I do not care for my own fate
My life I would gladly yield
Because I now care more for him
To protect him with a shield

The day that death comes knocking for him
I'll fight him with all my strength
but what if he is overpowering?
Do I hold my love at arms length?

I know these answers in my head
I know what is the truth
But I cant help my heart to fret like this
Even though Im in my youth.

*** Its funny because I grew up fearing nothing, until I found my true love and now all I fear is loosing him.***