Why

I know you dont care anymore about what happeneds b.c like u say w/e happeneds happeneds and i deserve that. i know pretty much u dont want nothing to do with me anymore and i understand. i understand if i pushed soo much that i in the end i pushed u away and i know that now juss wish i would have relazied when everone was telling me at the time but my eyes where blinded by the fact u left and still to this day i cant get over the fact i lost you when i told u everyday i would never leave u. i know pretty much any chances of us even beeing close is out the window for the long time or probably forver n i understand y u dont care anymore n y u dont wanna talk to me or even call me it hurts because i didnt know what i had till i pushed you away and i kno that i made the biggest mistake this yr and its ripping me apart inside.