Just cannot let you go

Every single night,
I lay here loosing a fight,
Baring all the pain,
Trying to keep from going insane,

Missing you all day, everyday,
Drowning in the words I did not get to say,
I cant help but regret
You mean too much for me to forget,

I am here always dying,
So unable to stop crying,
Tears oh so bloody drops of rain,
There is just too much pain,

The heart aching burn,
I am never going to learn,
No one know, No one understands,
That I would give anything to hold your hand,

Everyone asks me why,
But I do not know why I said goodbye,
Im so stupid I hope you know,
I just cannot let you go