I Cant Feel

That feelings back
Where I'm completely alone
I tried to force a smile
But i can't be fake at home

their screams continue
the disappointment in their eyes
always smiling, they're always fine
I'm the only one that cries

tears roll down my cheeks
as i try again to stand
he's all around me
but i cant grab his hand

and the pain is back deeper this time
i can feel it in my heart
everybody is here staring
and i don't know where to start

the song goes on and on
I'm praying it'll end
but just as the last note leaves
the song begins again

out of breath from running away
and pushed into a corner
i don't want to be alone
but I'm forced to be a loner

the minutes pass into hours
hours into days
everything around me changes
I'm the only one that stays

and its a hard life to live
when you don't know how
its hard to move from the past
and to learn to live in now

so i sit in an empty room
right inside my head
stare at the wall
lay on my bed

its white all around
4 walls a bed and me
but I'm safe here
I'm somehow somewhat happy

and hes all around me
but when i touch him i cant feel
his hand or his lips, they're fading away
i knew he wasn't real...