I'd give you the time I have left
If it was mine to give
Seeing you like this
Makes me want to
Not see you at all
- how can I even think this way?
Being with you like this
Shows me I need to
Cherish life above all else -
Though
Yours more than mine.
I'd give you the time I have left
If it was mine to give
Life and death
The more permanent persists
Love and loss,
All the same
No more tears to be shed
I've already filled the sea
Still the currents keep returning,
Keeps coming back to me
Beyond the horizon
Is the clearest of blue skies
A heaven not far from your reach
Where you deserve to be
While I sit on this desolate beach
Not willing to let you go
No more tears to be shed
I've already filled the sea
Still the currents keep returning,
Keeps coming back to me
Filling my soul with even more tears,
Each drop tearing me into smaller pieces
Able to do nothing at all.
I'd give you the time I have left
If it was mine to give.
As I lay beside you staring into
A face I don't recognize anymore,
A face of you I hope I can forget.
I try to think back to a time
When you didn't look so worn
Back when the wrinkles, frowns, and
Especially the helplessness
Didn't make you such a stranger.
I try to memorize that distantly vague
Yet somewhat uplifting face,
But I still can't turn away
From the real image of you now,
Afraid when I do
It'll be the last I see of you.
You whisper for me to
Let you go
That you will be alright
That it's time for you to face your life
On your own
I find sorrow in your words,
Yet find comfort in my sorrow.
Leave your misery behind,
I'll take good care of it.
You already know
I'd give you all the time I have left -
Truth is, you'd never accept it,
Even if it was mine to give.
Tear drenched imprints of my love for you,
Gentle kisses on your lovely face -
This I can give,
While I hold your fragile hand
And see you off to a better place.
- Yu-hsien Ho
my friend wrote this to me when my mumma was in the hospital. she passed away on 08.22.06
