This dark inside of me
pushed into the deepest reachs of my heart, mind, and soul
its finally released ina destructive burst of pain and fury
its an overwhelming desire for death
it claws its way out from the deepest crevice of my mind
and tears my mind asunder
when i finally reclaim my mind the damage is dealt
and all i can do is move on and pray for it to never happen again
i bottle it all back up
and foolishly push it back into that same crevice of my mind
where it accumulates
growing
festering
becoming this inner turmoil of inescapable raw emotion
this inner turmoil decays the inside of my mind
rotting me form the inside out
it it slowly rots its way to visibility
and thenyou come back into my life
you make me smile once more
you make me laugh anew
and you help me with this bottle of pain
you help me with this festering decay
and then you tell me it will be alright
you look deeply into my eyes
and then you hug me tight and tell me that you'll never let go.
