To you i bid

Oh don't worry,
ill be alright,
its just another one,
of those sleepless nights.

i have them often,
if you cant tell,
and i know what you're thinking,
right now its O well.

I am completely,
and totally aware,
that despite your my brother,
you couldn't give any less of a care.

you say its not my business,
but your my family and i love you,
i just hope that like everyone else,
you'll see it soon too.

drugs aren't the answer,
they dint make you feel better,
and yea i know Ive never done them,
but i heard from someone who knows better.

if mom lets you read this,
I'm sorry for telling,
but no one on here knows me,
and its how i keep my pain from dwelling.

I've been there before,
to where i just wanna die,
but i got out of it,
now all i want to do is cry.

i thought things were better,
and i got a boyfriend,
but apparently they haven't,
cause i have nightmares about your end.

and i know this,
probably scares you,
but the truth is,
it horrifies me too.

you said you'd quit,
but we don't know if you did,
so with tears in my eyes,
this poem, to you, i bid.