Dad, Yes I Do Cut

So here I lay thinking
of what I have done
Wishing he would understand
Where I am coming from!
So what do I do now,
when you call me that name
I feel so lost and lonely
I don't feel the same!
If only you were here
i think you would understand
Just maybe listen to me
then lend me your hand!
I am sorry for this
I just have to say
that what you said really hurt
and that what I might do tonight
might really hurt!
I can't say what it is,
but you'll think I am a nut
for it will bring you pain
to see you daughter cut!
You may not believe it
but it is true
you never really saw
the scars on my arm were few!
Sometimes when it's upon my wrist
I say to myself, "I'm the mistake"
and I start to cry,
there's no more I can take!
So here I lay upon my bed
thinking of everything that you said
So the door I must shut
so that I can make one more cut.