Stronger

I wasn't thinking,
it was wrong, so foolish.
I knew it was, but I still did it.
I could of said no,
I could of refused and kicked him out,
but I let him stay.
I let things get out of hand,
I kissed him.
He held me, he told me he loved me.
Of course it was a lie, I knew it was,
but I just loved the feeling.
I loved the thought of being loved.
We were so close, I blanked out.
I did things that I regret,
I regret so badly.
The love of my life was sleeping,
he was asleep as I did this horrible deed.
He tells me it's not my fault,
but I know it is.
I could of stopped it,
but I didn't want to.
It felt so good, to finally hold someone.
Not dream of it,
but it was not love.
So now I look back,
he still lingers around waiting for me,
waiting for me to fall for his spell.
I will try to be stronger,
but he's like Hercules.
I envy his strength,
I need to be strong,
I need to fight.
I need to fight the odds,
so I can beat his lies, and find my love.