Dear God,
There's a few thing I need to say,
a few things on my head,
a few thing you should know,
a lot I have not said.
Why did Kurtis have to leave?
Why couldn't he be strong?
Why can't he love me anymore?
Why do I have to be known as "wrong"?
Why can't I finish school?
Why doesn't anyone understand?
Why do they all stare?
When I ask for someone's hand?
Why do you let me hurt myself?
Let me cut and let me smoke?
Do things to kill me slowly?
One day I will just choke.
Why did you take my baby?
I would've been a great mother,
I would've survived with my baby,
even if I didn't talk to his father.
Why do I do stupid things?
to hurt the people I love?
Why can't I be perfect?
Like I was just sent from above?
Why is the world going to War?
Why do people die?
Why can't we just all be happy?
But all I do is sit here and cry.
Why can't I let anyone in?
Why did I shut my heart?
Why can't I love someone knew?
Why do hearts get torn apart?
and God....
Why am I me?
Did you make me knowing of my mistakes?
Did you know that I would disappoint so many people?
Did you know that I can't do it, no matter what it takes?
Did you know how weak I am?
and how little "faith" I have inside of me?
Did you know that I would be suicidal?
and how everyone would hate me?
Did you know that I would be a mess?
and that I am "lost" from the right?
I can't find my way out,
to go to your light.
And did you know?
that I would screw up so badly,
and if you did,
Why did you let me go?
