Trapped.....

A heartbeat of a jaded life
beating in an unfamiliar chest,
Where to turn? Who to trust?
The unwillingness of the lungs to breathe
masked by a unrehearsed exterior.
The grasp of fate and intervention
ridicule the mind with unobtainable fantasies.
A mind dying for a future
but prohibited by a heart still in the past.
Eyes watching the reality
But trying to remember what once was,
Sheer panic as the heartbeat doubles in intensity.
Looking in all the wrong places for salvation
as if you are another person watching your life -decay-

The banging of the fists on a fortress gate,
Searching more for answers than freedom.
A choice to live inside these walls
unhindered by the reality of time,
Love a vile demon...
Forcing hate onto an already shredded heart
The truth in the mirror-
A girl- me- trapped in the loneliness of her heart