A second too late

by Chelsey   Mar 6, 2007


I'm so sorry my sweet child
I can't believe your in heaven
I'm such an awful mother
For killing my son at the age of seven

I know since I gave birth to your brother
Things haven't been the same
I haven't tucked you in lately
It's been a long time since we played games

I've made you get breakfast by yourself
You got in the shower on your own
I'll never forgive myself for that one time
I accidently left you at home

I never knew it'd be this hard
To raise children by myself
You both call for my attention
I never asked you for help

Baby the day we were at the park
And you jumped off the swing and broke your neck
I couldn't believe that took your life
For weeks I was such a reck

I just let you run off and play
While I bought icecream with my little man
When I looked over and saw you laying there
I couldn't breathe; I couldn't stand

If I wasn't so wrapped up with my younger son
If he wasn't such a hastle
Baby I would have pushed you on the swing
Or perhaps built a sand castle

I'm sorry I was late sweetie
When I got there you were already dead
You feel so hard your neck snapped quick
Now at night I see your face in my head

I'm so sorry when you jumped
You saw me laughing with your brother
I'll live everyday in regret baby
That I favored one child over another

I'll never forgive myself; I'll always hate
That when you jumped I was second too late

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  • 17 years ago

    by dora

    Wow that was so deep and powerful and sad. a touching write. very well written xx

  • 17 years ago

    by Eibutsina

    Suicide is a horrible experience for so many families around the world, I dont think people who committ suicide have an understanding of the profound affect there actions have on those who knew and loved them. You know how I feel about this Chels, I think its gutless. Your poem, is just one of the many reasons I do...poor parents forever blame themselves and live with permanent guilt ...some people are fighting to live while others are wishing to die...

    MARVELLOUS WRITE CHELLY!

    Eirisa

  • 17 years ago

    by Normal is the Watchword

    I'm sick....not of your poem but the feeling it leaves after it is read....chilling....haunting Chels

  • 17 years ago

    by skyfox

    O h my what a truly powerful poem. The words
    "I'll never forgive myself
    That when you jumped I was a second to late" Just leapt from the page with such impact. The whole poem really touched my heart. Very well written

  • 17 years ago

    by Alvaro

    Mpmm,

    "I'll never forgive myself; I'll always hate
    That when you jumped I was second too late "

    that got to me

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